sometimes you just make me feel so little.
i tried to do everything for you.
tried to be there for you.
just like she days, i spoil you.
i cant take how i'm being taken for granted by you.
the things that i sacrificed for you.
but then again.
i'm like nothing to you anyway.
so why bother?

like everything doesnt matter to you.
i made the effort.
you pulled out.
so too bad.
that chance is gone.

four days and i'm feeling it.
i guess i cant be too far from you.

i got my class list out!
its a five day week.
and i got my elective with farhan!
yes.
and a few of my old classmates.
and one very important person.
PASTI!
all my SAS modules are with my favourite darling!
my heart shaped backside!

i wanna give kaira a hug and tell her everything is alright.

tell me how im supposed to breathe with no air?
got me out here n the water so deep.
tell me how you gonna breathe without me?
without you here i just cant breathe.
there's no air, no air.

those words keep ringing in my head.

maybe thats whats got me so insecure nowadays.
maybe thats why we have so man fights too.

i miss you.

this is clearly a moment that i want to hide frm the world.
i'd rather just snuggle up with someone.
and just die.

somehow everything is turning against me.
like something i eld dear just disappeared into thin air.
i thought i was stronger than this.

you have no idea.
no bloddy idea and you say words like this.
one of the reasons why i left in the first place.
cause of people like you.
yeah.
its true that you can choose your friends.
you're just a mistake.

i've made too many mistakes now.
he's not one of them.

yes, its this light at the end of the tunnel.

i sent a text to ask when we want to meet.
and i get no reply.

on a lighter note.
i got school tomorrow.

on a even lighter note.
my pay didn't come in.

better still,
i'm made to look like a fool.

isn't life grand?
i'm going to kill myself soon.
everyone say yay.

you know what my heart feels right now?
contentment.
i dont know why.
but it happens sometimes.

at the same time, i'm feeling stressed.
and that stress is coming from all sides.
i guess i'm over working.
FYP, gosh.
i dont have the mood for it right now.
yes, we're all in the holiday mood arent we?

i'm missing out on my religious life.

by the way.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA.

i guess its the way you make me feel.

Post 10 things that will make me happy and then tag 7 people

1. God.
   
2. My smelly baby. :))
   
3. Dance.
   
4. Kaira, Sheryl, Samantha, Jolynn, Dave.
   
5. Writing.
   
6. Books.
   
7. Music.
   
8. Working. (i know this sounds stupid.)
   
9. Mummy.
   
10. The rest of the family and friends.
    

The 7 people are...

• Sherilyn, i dont care. must do!
  
• Sheryl.
  
• Shabin.
  
• Samantha.
  
• Kaira.
  
• Nurimah.
  
• Shakthee.

i'm happy.
finally.
i'm cool with where i am.

i realised that i've never written a happy song.

i love him.
because he makes me smile even though i feel like killing him.